Story time

What motherhood changed for me

growing up, it was as if i had to always just function. of course, this way of living was absolutely depleting.

at some point, I packed up my oh-so-regulated life and moved to Australia for a bit. the wild countryside allowed something in me to untangle, and as the months passed, a lot of clarity swooshed in.

i was drawn to berlin and suddenly felt ready to have a family of my own. the clarity and ease stayed with me for quite a few years. until i became a mother.

it was a transformation so strong that it took my breath away.

it was like i shed some armor and discovered there were wounds. my children were holding up a mirror, and i was smart enough not to avoid it. with help and in time these wounds started to heal.

today only what feels right is welcome with me. i turned away from my career in architecture, and i let what is important to me flow into my work.

when I look back on myself as a new mother, I have so much empathy for her. can you see her gazing into the depths?